is it right? is it wrong? regardless, it's unavoidable. the truth is, it's really irritating. the truth is i'm mad at you. you shouldn't have done that. and people say 'just talk to her' but i don't feel close enough to talk about it. i don't want to cause a problem, but if i'm this irked already, it's too late, isn't it?
and i don't know that i can blame her for changing - because i changed - and i'm mad that she didn't. or hasn't. or if she ever did, and i thought we were closer than that, it was just agreeing with me in words but not in thought. i trusted it, but i don't know if it was wrong. and if we can't agree on a deeper level, if i don't feel safe around you - how can i feel safe around you with silly things?
it rather jeopardizes things. and everyone would blame it on me. but i just don't TRUST. i can't trust. you don't know me, and i don't want to know you anymore.